Sel•Fi•e – Light version still frame taken from tokenized video artwork up for auction at SuperRare.co/Fi
Completely hand drawn using an iPad Pro + Apple Pencil | 6k x 5k | – This is no more than a surreal portrait of me and my psyche. So many things holding us down and completely aware. -I won’t be able to find a job here. Not having a computer and not even having a stable internet connection at all times is not the way to grow my presence as a digital artist. But the idea of moving back to Mexico City feels like a last goodbye to my father. When did I go back to being so scared? Where are you Firaffe? Where are you Moom? Where are you Lilu? LiV? Baby Bouncer? Who are we? Where are we? What the hell are we doing?– We are in a position in which all we freaking do is watch, observe. At nature, at people, at the world. But we haven’t really looked. -My capacity to get work done, which for me is my ability to stay focused on how many things, is somewhat little. I know I may be stupid so many times, but I’m an artist! Am I not? How am I supposed to behave? Like a real down-to-earth person? Well I am not one. I’m not like that. I am a disaster.-

-Keep playing my heart strings, faster and faster. You can be just what I want, my true disaster-

This is more than a surreal portrait of me and my psyche, this is a visual conversation. -We have to take the risk to do this our own way. No more trying to be other people, be who we freaking are. Stop comparing to those other amazing artists around and keep on creating, for our own human health. Just keep on creating. It will be enough one day. Right?- But are we good enough? Bold enough? Brave enough? What about strong? Creative? Talented? Innovative? Are we ever enough? – We already know the answer, keep on believing until it feels true.

LiV. An IV for light – Still frame taken from tokenized video artwork up for auction at SuperRare.co/Fi
Completely hand drawn using an iPad Pro + Apple Pencil | 5k x 7k | – During the first months of COVID19, my faith has been questioned by my own meanings. I have long stopped believing in an almighty god as most religions often paint it and started believing in a wider universe connected by energy, by matter… and somehow it all comes down to goodwill and love, which is something I believe our current society lacks a lot of. – My beloved family and I have been dealing with my father’s cancer and health conditions, which only got worse during the lockdown. It’s been 8 months since I moved back home to help take better care of him, and his light seems to be slowly fading away, day by day. I am grateful for being here, with them… and I’m also scared, terrified, looking for the meaning of it all. To be completely honest: I’m no longer sure if light and/or energy is coming towards us or away from us; passing through us and filling our bodies or actually draining us. I know I’ve got to keep on believing. On what exactly? That’s still the question.

Lilu (Light) – Light version still frame taken from tokenized video artwork up for auction at SuperRare.co/Fi – Completely hand drawn using an iPad Pro + Apple Pencil – 2k – Black, white and alpha (transparent) pixels

“I am the guardian of light. Not a he, not a she. A creature capable of bringing light into the darkest places of your mind. Come on in, trust me. This time it won’t be pitch dark”

This piece came out of the original sketch that became “Baby bouncer”, one of my previous works. Stripped down to it’s essence, taking it back to it’s original form and giving it a more hearted meaning. With a hidden visual effect disguised as a magic spell:

By thumbnail one way. By full screen another. This shall be the norm. Until you find the courage to come in. And then take one’s true form.

Baby Bouncer – Still frame taken from tokenized video artwork up for auction at SuperRare.co/Fi – Completely hand drawn using an iPad Pro + Apple Pencil – “When the centralized economies in the world become unsustainable and the feeling of being trapped in the fiat dream becomes unbearable. There are baby bouncers opening up portals for you to catch a glimpse at decentralized freedom. Welcome to a new universe. Welcome to a new space. Buckle up and remember: the higher you shoot, the higher you’ll get to land.”

Firaffe (light) – Light version still frame taken from tokenized video artwork up for auction at SuperRare.co/Fi – Completely hand drawn using an iPad Pro + Apple Pencil – “A tough one. With many life scars, soul cracks. Thrown in the dark, alone and afraid, stayed there for a long time. Bruised at a young age, drinking tears over the flames, licking wounds with a rosty taste… until something truly amazing happens: I’m freaking glowing in the dark!“ – Vulnerability is something most people undervalue, while others are even afraid of it. Often mistaken as being weak or mentally insane by those that haven’t taken a real dive into their own vulnerabilities. Usually linked to darkness as well, we have a tendency for trying to take control by self-imposing limitations instead of making an effort to understand them. Firaffe has been living in the dark since a very young age, which only helped to face and recognize it’s own vulnerabilities. Now, old enough to understand them, Firaffe found a way to make them glow. Darkness has never been this bright.

Fitro – Not for sale – Completely hand drawn using an iPad Pro + Apple Pencil – “What comes in, might never come out the same”

Fidden – Not for sale – Completely hand drawn using an iPad Pro + Apple Pencil – This one I draw during my time in Montreal. The first half came out naturally during the first couple of days, the second half was pure mental vomit in the last days of my stay. I was feeling sad, lost and alone. My father recently started to show symptoms of his cancer getting stronger and I didn’t know what to do. Should I stay here and chase my idealized future? Should I go back home and take this chance to see my father again, to be with him and my mother? My feelings of depression for the past and anxiety for the future were drowning me. I would get high every day and think too much about what was expected from me, what I was supposed to do, and then think a whole lot more about what I really wanted for me. Some of my friends and family gave me their advice, trying to tell me what to do, how to feel, how to be me. In the end, I came back because of love, not because of anything else. When I was drawing the left and last portion, I believe the energy around me was so intense that the whole progress got deleted all of a sudden, leaving me with a blank space and a rage inside. Only the first half of the drawing remained, the one from the previous sessions. It was lost. Fortunately, “we have technology!” I took a screenshot from the “making of” video that most drawing apps automatically capture nowadays and even though it doesn’t have the same pixel resolution the original file was supposed to have, here it is. What wanted to stay hidden is now Fidden. – It is a battle, a catastrophe and a light at the end of the tunnel. It is all about the uncertainty of not knowing what to do

Fitch – Not for sale – Completely hand drawn using an iPad Pro + Apple Pencil – “An enemy within is a potential friend” – This one still manages to give me chills every time I stare at it for too long. I have come to describe her as “a queen in the dark”. She is not the queen of the dark… but she is aiming to become just that. A queen herself, she is learning how to fit in on what seems to be a world driven by, mostly, darkness. Her mask is not complete though, her face is not fully covered and that is on purpose. While some would rather keep their distance, she actually enjoys letting other people know how different she is underneath and almost everyone who gets to really know her comes to appreciate that. Rightfully so, isn’t it? You know what I’m talking about, and if you don’t, you will soon enough. – She’s not that bad. She is only trying to survive while doing whatever it takes to thrive in the process. Her own kind of thriving, of course. –

She’s an itch. She’s a bitch. Some say she’s a witch. And her name? Fitch.

WTFi – Not for sale – Completely hand drawn using an iPad Pro + Apple Pencil – “Looking for a future” – This was my very first drawing where I focused solely on Mental Vomit. I had been dreaming of a solo trip to Montreal for most of my life. I do believe that idea influenced this artwork. To me, it looks like a sketchy human being wearing some kind of winter clothes, with a surreal approach. – People have given me many different interpretations, such as: “A horse running for its life” / “A duckling crying while praying” / “A woman reaching into her purse looking for something she may never find. Forever locked in that state” / “A whale opening its mouth ready to engulf us all” – What do YOU see? Let me know down in the comments. I do love knowing all about it.

Moom – Tokenized digital artwork up for auction at SuperRare.co/Fi – Completely hand drawn using an iPad Pro + Apple Pencil – “A body part of a never seen and never known kind of creature, since it only appeared in my dreams” – This was my very first attempt at drawing something “good”. At least what I thought back then about what it meant. At the time I was discovering this whole new world inside the iPad Pro. I sold my laptop in the hopes of pursuing an even more mobile life. Being able to bring it to work and even use it there while full-filling all my computer needs, without it being an actual computer, felt amazing. Even though nowadays I’m seriously considering buying a laptop as a companion because it just fell short overtime. It’s development is as slow as it gets and the company behind it is slowing as well. Leaving that behind… I was eager to try it out. Months passed by and I wasn’t getting it, I didn’t even used the pencil that much, only to draw some furniture in different perspectives, which felt sad because I had also dropped out of college recently and all that Industrial Design knowledge was limiting my creative senses, it still does sometimes. Focusing too much on every single detail, the whole aesthetic of the piece, the minimalistic approach, the clean, simple and fine imagery. Still struggling to find a balance between Art and Design. One day I decided I’ve had it enough, started drawing a lot of lines coming out of one single ‘perspective point’. Drawing natural and curvy lines that completely destroyed the rules of perspective points in the Technical Drawing world. It was all out of frustration, out of feeling so ‘structured’ inside that I just wanted to break out of it. This is how it all started, then I didn’t stop. I would draw in my room, in the subway, at work, during phone calls at the Call Center, sometimes I would zone out so hard I couldn’t even remember what a client was talking about. I became a bad employee at the very end. Right before quitting after finding myself inside someone else’s body, holding my life between the rails of the subway and my writing. That very last day when I stared at the city underneath, standing in the rooftop garden of that very tall building. That very last day when I collapsed in the subway and stared at the rails long enough to know that it was not how I wanted it all to end. That very last day when I got myself into a psychiatric institution out of fear of causing me harm. – Thank you moom. You saved me as much as my writing did and that’s something I’ll always cherish. – You matter to me. My beautiful ‘monstery’ creature inside 🤍